I want to be off this medication so badly. It is definitely making me more miserable — if not from the medicine itself, from the way I'm always tired and feel like I haven't slept at all. I dream, so I should be getting some rest, but I'm always tired as hell. It doesn't help that it takes me forever to fall asleep, and to make it worse I constantly wake up throughout the night now. Sometimes I jerk awake so suddenly I feel like something must be wrong, like I must have heard or felt something that means I need to be out of bed now, and I jump out only to realize that nothing's wrong at all. After all my restless shifting I usually wind up sleeping in some weird position that has me waking up with a sore arm or shoulder or whatever, making it take even longer to fall asleep the next time because I can't get comfortable. People have been saying that I sound like I don't want to talk or like I'm going to cry, but that's not it — I'm just so tired.

I will catch up on stuff, eventually. I'd just like to be able to do it while really and truly awake.

And I know most of my posts are about sleep and my medication now, but that's pretty much where my thoughts are like all the time.